It took me a long time to shake my Christmas funk this year. What I realised a little to late in the season was I had lost my way. A quote from Edna Ferber via Sarah Ban Breathnach's 'Romancing the Ordinary', "Christmas isn't a season, It's a feeling" left me wondering how was it that I felt no excitement over the season at all. Upon further reading, Sarah really nailed what was missing for me. "Once upon a time, you believed that Christmas was the most magical time of the year. It can be again." I knew then that I had to let go. I hold onto my ideals so tight about how things should be done and the gifts that should be given, that I have no mystical wonder left. I know all that is being given and received down to a dictated list of gifts that I want from my husband. I remembered that the sparkle for me comes with the unknown. The things I loved about Christmas as a child was the waiting, the anticipation, the unknown and the giving. I think that I need to give more of myself and except more from others in return. For now I just want to remember this, because this year I want to feel that heart racing, butterfly stirring, giddy headedness right down to my little toes.
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Oh what is it with blogs today, I have read yours & Danni's and they have both made me cry. Well said. xx
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